My father, Lamar Howe, died on 17 May. I’m writing this on Saturday morning, a week after the funeral, at the time when we would have been having our regular video chat. It hurts to know I’ll never be able to talk to him to again, or ever again experience one of his solid fatherly hugs.
His obituary sets out the bare facts of his life, but these few sentences seem so inadequate at capturing the qualities of a life well lived:
Lamar attended Robinson Elementary, Gastonia High School, and Erskine College as well as various business and trade schools. He entered the family business, T.Q. Howe’s Garage, in 1949 and remained there until his retirement in 1994. For 30 years he served as a volunteer fireman, and 25 years as chief, with Union Road Volunteer Fire Department. For 5 years he served as assistant Gaston County Fire Marshall. Lamar was a lifelong member of Olney Presbyterian Church where he served as a Deacon, Elder, and Choir member. He enjoyed golf, photography, traveling, and motorcycle riding.
He was married to my mother for 67 years. He hardly ever left her side after her first fall more than a decade ago when she broke her shoulder. Even after they had to move her into their retirement village’s heath centre because she needed more intensive care than he could provide, he spent most of every day with her until she died, looking after her and keeping her company.
He was, among many other things, a mechanic and a businessman, running a garage that specialised in large trucks and heavy equipment, with customers all over the Southeast. He was a businessman because he had to be; a mechanic because he wanted to be. Because fixing things was fun. He was a skilled diagnostician, often able to pinpoint what was wrong with an engine just by listening to the sounds it made. I understand the thrill it gave him to dig into a tough problem and experience that “gotcha” moment when the root cause finally becomes clear; I got that from him.
He retired at 65 and sold the business. When the new owner proved unable to keep it going, he stepped back in at the age of 70 and started a new business, helping his former employees regroup, and propping them up with his decades of experience until they were ready to keep it running on their own.
He was—first, last, and always—a valuable and valued member of his community. He was buried in the cemetery surrounding the church where he was baptised 91 years earlier and spent his entire life as a member, and where his parents and generations of Howe ancestors and other relatives are buried. It had been decades since he had given up firefighting, but the members of the Fire Department remembered him and turned out for his funeral, laying his fire coat and helmet across the casket. I get teary-eyed thinking about that.
As a kid I was unaware of how much the dangers a firefighter faces must have stressed my mother. The chatter of the fire radio, broadcasting fire calls for all of Gaston County, was a constant part of the background noise in my parents’ house, and I, oblivious teen, frequently tuned it out, to my mother’s great annoyance. She’d catch the sound of a callout from another part of the house and come rushing into the den wanting to know which station was involved. I’d have my nose in a book and would just shrug. “Don’t know.”
After the fire was out, he’d come home and shed his gear in the carport so the smoke wouldn’t stink up the house. I have jumbled memories of him being out at a fire most of the night, getting an hour or two of sleep and then getting up again before dawn so he could get to the garage to open on time.
I don’t know how he did it, year after year after year, but he was always on the move. He had more energy at 70 than some people have at 30.
When he wasn’t being called out on fires, there were the late-night wrecker calls. We got socked by an ice storm one memorable Christmas. When he got a call to go pull a Duke Power truck out of a ditch, a visiting elderly relative’s sleep was disturbed, and she wanted to know what was going on. With the sleeping arrangements already topsy-turvy in a cramped house, none of us got much sleep that night.
Sometime during those years as a firefighter, he trained and was certified as an EMT. I have no idea how many people have reason to thank him for that training; I just remember him as Doctor Dad. He tended to my bandages after a high school shop-class accident took a bite out of my right hand. Decades later I remember him picking splinters out of my daughter’s hand after an encounter with some faulty playground equipment. He took care of other people’s children, too, always carrying a Band-aid or two tucked inside his wallet to patch up skinned knees or knuckles.
He loved to travel, seeing most of the United States with Mama after he retired. He was funny, curious, and open to new experiences. He saw the value of computerising his business, back in the 1980’s, to ease the work involved in accounts management and inventory control. Computers did give him some trouble, especially video conferencing, but he kept at it so we could keep in touch after my family moved to New Zealand.
My grandmother would tell how excited he got as a little boy whenever she said they were going out, bouncing in his playpen, saying, “Ridey-ride, ridey-ride.” It sometimes seemed as if he was always behind the wheel of something: cars, trucks, fire engines, farm tractors, tractor-trailers, or the honking huge tow truck the garage used to pull those tractor-trailers when they broke down. He was never comfortable as a passenger; he was much happier behind the wheel. When he and his buddies went down to Myrtle Beach for a weekend golf trip, or to Atlanta to watch the Braves play, he drove, hauling a crowd in a big van nicknamed Vanessa.
In later years, particularly after a bad shoulder forced him to give up golf, he spend more time on the motorcycle he bought after he retired. (He’d always wanted one, but didn’t have the money when he was young, and then in middle age he was too busy.) Ten years ago, at the age of 81, he raised money for his church’s building program on a one-day, 403-mile marathon loop through the Carolinas and Georgia.
A few years ago he started having occasional dizzy spells, and had to trade the two-wheeler in for a three-wheeled motorbike, but he still enjoyed his rides. He made a 200+ mile ride through his favourite spots in the North Carolina mountains (Blue Ridge Parkway in particular) to celebrate his 90th birthday.
I knew the end was near when he told us, not long ago, that he had finally had to give that up, too. Although lung disease did him in—years of dealing with asbestos-lined brake pads caught up to him—losing the activity that had given him the most pleasure the last few years took a toll, too.
Miss you, Daddy.
What an amazing man your father must have been, Barbara. He was one of the unsung heros for sure. You have written a beatiful song about him here.
Thank you, Rachel
Clearly his memory is a blessing to you, I hope that helps to ease your loss.
Thank you Barbara for sharing your memories and profound love of your dad.
Thanks for sharing a recap of your dad’s wonderful and fulfilling life. Glad I could take part in visits with your family over the years. I know you will miss him but know you have lots of wonderful memories. Thanks again.
What a life! Sounds like your dad’s passing is a loss to a lot of people.
Yes, and I’ll never know how many or who they all are. He wasn’t one for blowing his own horn.
Wow, I never met him, didn’t know of him, but reading Barbara’s description of him, I really like him. He was one of “The Greatest Generation”, a very good person. I am so sorry we are losing good people like him. I’m glad he lived a long life.
I did not know him, but after reading Barbara’s description of him, I love him. He, like my father ,was a member of the “Greatest Generation”. Mr. Howe was a hard working, kind , honorable person. It is a great loss when we lose members ,like Mr. Howe, from that generation of really good people.
Thank you, Harriette
Barbara, my husband Roger and I were neighbors/friends with your sister when we resided in SC. Roger was a golfing buddy to Rich and I was an envious observer of Cindy’s creativity. After reading your “testimony” about your dad, I too am teary-eyed…I FEEL the loss that you and Cindy feel. Just KNOW that Jesus is allowing your dad to look down and enjoy the fruit of he and your mom’s labors….you sisters have obviously followed in his BIG footsteps. You will see your parents again one day…don’t grieve, for you know where they both are.
Thank you, Debbie. It is tough, losing both parents, but I’m glad that that I still have a fabulous sister.
Thanks for sharing Barbara. You’re writing about your family is heart warming!
Thank you, Pete
Barbara, thank you so much for shearing with us. We’ll always love Peewee and wish you the best. You’re a great writer indeed.
Wonderful tribute! I’m so sorry for your loss of this wonderful man.
Thank you, Mary Lou
Barbara -a beautiful tribute to your father. One can see where some of your beautiful soul originated. Losing a father was especially hard for me, too. I feel for you.
Congratulations on the success of your books.
Thank you, Pat
I found this when looking for your article on The Brother Cadfael, and it made my evening. What a man your dad was! And what a joy that you so skillfully shared a bit of his life, and who he was, with me.
Thank you, Theresa